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Dad, Daddy, what does faggot mean?"Dad, Daddy, what does 'faggot' mean?"

It was an innocent question. I didn't mean to make you cry. I still remember how you reacted, even though it was years ago; Seb, you covered your mouth for a moment, then hugged me tight and said "Oh, baby girl. You'll understand when you're older." Chris, you wiped away tears and excused yourself from the room.

I was so confused then; what had made my fathers cry? Nothing made my Dads cry. You laughed and joked around and sometimes got angry, but never cried. I was attached to you by then; you weren't the strangers who'd taken me in. You were Mom and Dad. I just wanted to know what the word I'd heard Dad, Daddy, what does faggot mean?11 months ago in Emotional

I hate that I have nothing better to do than to make this list.
I hate how I'm going to make about 43578978 typos while writing this.
I hate how I'm too lazy to go back and fix said typos.
I hate that I don't have word office or whatever to correct my typos.
I hate that my computer crashes every other month.
I hate how I still don't use a flash drive to back my work up.
I hate that I had so many unfinished, near-completion pictures I lost because of said crash.
I hate how long it takes me to finish art trades.
I hate how people take shit so seriously.
I hate that I used to take shit so seriously.
I hate how people can take the -inteI hate --2 years ago in Emotional

ObsessionIt takes 14 minutes and twelve seconds to walk to your home from mine every day. Your mother never fails to smile at me when she opens the door. I never fail to notice that it doesn't reach her eyes anymore.

You leave your door open an exact two point three centimeters. I don't think you do it on purpose. There is something wrong with the wood that has left it that way. I pause one foot outside the door and listen to you cough, trying to determine how sick you feel today. I hate that every time I think you are particularly ill, I am always right.

Six months, seventeen days and fourteen hours. That is how long its been since the dObsession2 years ago in Emotional

I am eight years old.I am eight years old.

My lips are perfectly pink. They don't need to look glossy or tinted redder. My cheeks don't need this, either. My eyes stand out well enough on their own without being lined with black paint. The mascara weighs on my lashes and makes me tired and itchy. This shit on my eyelids shouldn't be there, either.

That was a bad word. I am afraid to say bad words, but I've got a few in my head. My friend told me that the word "bitch" means "female dog," but I think she's wrong. I don't think I've ever heard it used in this context. Actually, I think it's a word for people like you. I say this to you with my eyes. YouI am eight years old.2 years ago in Emotional

It doesn't matterIt doesn't matter to me when someone is
straight
bisexual
homosexual
Asexual
pansexual
transgender
Mormon
brony
Atheist
Buddhist
Jewish
Christian
Muslim
satanist
emotional
white
Asian
black
tall
fat
skinny
ugly
pretty
short
weird
strange
scene
emo
goth
punk
aboriginal
furry
therian
etc.
because you are more important than words....
if you're a friend to me I'll be a friend to youIt doesn't matter6 months ago in Emotional

Such Sweet Sorrow

Tell me about something that made you sad.

Uh. Okay. Let me think. [Pause] I was sad when I sent you to the airport in San Antonio. That made me sad… You leaving again made me sad.

Yeah. That made me sad, too. Parting is always sad, but you know what's worse? It always gets better. The first couple times, you're like—she's leaving, I'm so sad I'm going to cry. And then, after a long time, you get used to it. That is sad.

Yeah. I understand.

Mm. Let's sleep now.

Okay.

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She fell into a slumber quickly. I soon heard her gentle andSuch Sweet Sorrow2 years ago in Emotional

Cold and smooth is the surface of glass, but it doesn't have a color,
and it hides the naked truth unlike any other

You look so innocent in the truth, but it really, truly lies,
'cause the person that it sees right now hardly can comply

The glowing glass holds the image of you, but all it sees is perfection
you like to tease it is the truth, though it is only your reflection

Blinded by beauty is the mirror to only notice features
it compares you to the rest, lower than a creature

It can't see your pain inside, or understand your feelings
and you know as you move on, it's yourself you're slowly killing

You let out a cry of pain as yoReflection1 year ago in Emotional

You Are BeautifulAm I fat? Am I ugly? Am I stupid? Am I hated? Am I a failure? Am I loser? Questions. Questions we ask ourselves, questions others make us think about. The kind you ask yourself as you stare in your bathroom mirror, wondering if what they say is true; wondering if what you're thinking about yourself right now is the truth. You'll try and push your stomach in, you'll try and hide your spots, hide the wrinkles that you think you see. You will do all this and pretend; pretend to be different, pretend that this person you're imagining is who you should be; is a person better than who you are right now.

Before you know it, you're looking at those You Are Beautiful2 years ago in Emotional

Don't hate me-Minato x Kushina

Don't Hate Me
[A MinaKushi fanstory]
[Minato X Kushina from Naruto]
By: Kaede Natsu Sakurano

"Minato! Quit joking with me!" Pink-haired Kushina pushed the 12-year old blonde boy away. Anger flashed in Kushina's grey eyes as she stared into Minato's blue ones.
Minato Namikaze shrugged, "I wasn't joking, I'm serious. I want you to go out with me." Kushina Uzumaki wasn't the type of girl that any boy would want to go out with. She concealed the nine-tailed fox beast within her body, so she was shunned by most of the village. Along with that, she was too serious. She knew that her genin classmate, Minato, was a joker and loved by everyone.Don't hate me-Minato x Kushina1 year ago in Emotional

I am who I am and I am proud of who I am

I am who I am and I am proud of who I am

The life I had before
is no longer mine...
The life I had been given
was not mine to begin with...

Once, I had awakened
from a dream unknown to me
Not to remember anything
that once meant everything to me.

A child I was, a pure soul
bound for unknown reasons
in this body, this shell...
Why am I here?

I was scared, stressed
I knew I was home
but the walls around me
were completely unknown...
I called for my mother,
the first who came to mind,
A man showed up and said
"Look at the time."

My mother had already been at work
it was noon
I couldn't remember much though...
I just knew.I am who I am and I am proud of who I am1 year ago in Emotional

Houdini My brother killed a cat today. There was a famous Chinese general who once said that you would truly discover a man through his torture. I have come to disagree. When are we more exposed than when we are in sorrow, ridden by guilt?

My brother killed a cat today. It was a little cat, a black one named Houdini with long fluffy hair and a sweet face. I'd heard of Houdini before when his owner pinned a note to our door when we were out asking if we would like to take him in. She had mistaken us for our neighbor, who has eleven cats. Her name was Holly and she sounded like she was between jobs.

My brother killed a cat today. It was a little cHoudini3 years ago in Emotional

It's tearing me apart. I'm breaking apart inside. I can't even smile. It hurts.

I can't do it anymore.Tears6 months ago in Emotional

zero.
5. I think I'm afraid of sex.

It's terrifying that two people can fit together perfectly, without even really liking each other at all.

4. I'm afraid of the day I start replacing myself with somebody else in all of our pictures; of the day I'll see my reflection and wish I didn't have to.

3. I'm afraid of doctors, and medicine.

The first time I took lithium, I couldn't hold it down. So I locked the bathroom door and flushed the entire bottle.

The second time, I couldn't walk more than ten steps without falling.

Honestly, I'm just wondering why they use poison to purify me.

2. I'm afraid of the ocean.

I'm afraid of looking down one dzero.7 months ago in Emotional

Are you happy now?I tried my best to please them all…

They said that I always looked too angry
So I shaved off my eyebrows

They said I always dressed bad
So I took off my clothes

They said I cried too much
So I burned out my eyes

They said I wasn't listening
So I tore off my ears

They said I always said the wrong things
So I ripped out my vocal cords

They said I always faked my smile
So I ripped off my lips

They said my hair was a mess
So I cut it off

They said my feet were too big
So I broke them

They said I walked weird
So I saw off my legs

They said I played too much with my fingers
So I pulled off my hands

They said my arms weAre you happy now?4 months ago in Emotional

She is...Her hands are not flawless anymore. Her nails not manicured and perfect in polish.
They are worn, and a little wrinkled with cuticles that seem tired and old. Her nails are cut perfectly, but no polish or manicure grace them.
Her hair no longer falls in curled perfect ringlets of thick wavy strands... They are now mostly tied up carelessly, held in a clasp.
Her lips now wear an all day moisturizing gloss instead of that creamy lipstick that smelled like sun ripened fruit.
Her curves are fuller and her body seems to have grown to adjust for providing comfort and care... and not to tempt.
But her eyes still wear that sparkle... and they are livelier than ever. Her laughter rings out like peals of silver bells and fills up the house, overflowing, till it spills out of the doors and windows and lets the sunshine in.
She may not be the girl I brought home, years ago.... but she is the woman who stayed by my side, through hail and sun, as perfect smiles got replaced by visits to the dentist.She is...1 year ago in Emotional

Nevermind My Love

-She- 'Bye! See ya!'
-me- 'Wait!'
-She- 'What is it?'
...
(I Love You)
-me- nevermindNevermind My Love2 years ago in Emotional

Black Veil Brides Quotes

1. "Life isn't about how popular you are… What girl or boy you are dating or who you know. Life is about always being true to who you are or what you believe in. Never let anyone convince you that their way is better than your way. In the end all we have is our hearts.. and our minds. This is the reason we sing.. this is the reason we cry… this is why we live." - Andy Biersack

2. "Bathe in your riches and friends, I'll stay here with my songbooks and pens" - Andy

3. "Pages of revelation lie open in your empty eyes of blue" - Andy

4. "I pray that I was all wrong about that prayer" - Andy

5. "Something pure to burn away the darkneBlack Veil Brides Quotes2 years ago in Emotional

no wonder it took him 1455 pageswhen i was seven years old, a group of kids in my grade threw rocks at me for liking neopets more than webkinz. from then on, i was convinced i knew what hatred meant. but i don’t know how to describe it to the little girl who sits in the corner of my womb and in ten years might call me mommy and ask for help on dividing the world into black and white.

would i point to the churches with their bigotry? to the cotton fields of the south in the 1800s? to the classrooms of modern day america? would i tell her about how the jews stood in straight lines, waiting to die, with fear in their eyes and faith in their hearts? or would i try and deno wonder it took him 1455 pages3 months ago in Emotional

The Galaxy Sings in B FlatThe galaxy sings in B flat.

Fifty-seven octaves below middle C, hundreds of thousands of tiny stars with little worlds trailing atmospheres in elliptical orbits. Double-star systems, triple-star, more; planets, civilisations, dark matter, tangible matter, all circling, swarming, humming together in one enormous note, not bumping together but carrying a wave from the centre of their island universe, expanding out into space…

Sound cannot exist in a vacuum. This is a widely known fact. And space is a vacuum, sure. But only when you look at it from here, from our tiny little world. Close your eyes, zoom out, and look at the celestialThe Galaxy Sings in B Flat3 years ago in Emotional

Happy BirthdayWhen I breathe into the empty blue morning, my breath fogs up in the too-cold-for-this-time-of-year air and I wish I could pull it back into me. I'm not quite awake and not quite asleep, but I'm conscious of the day and the time and the rain that prickles my face through the open screen window. I wish you a quiet happy birthday under my breath because I might have lost the right to make you happy, but I'll still wish it forever.

Your name on my lips hurts and it's a struggle to move the air past my vocal cords in a way that will actually produce sound instead of a whisper. I keep you so close to my heart that every time it beats it touches yHappy Birthday3 years ago in Emotional

100 ONE DIRECTION FACTS AND QUOTES1. Harry has type B blood (yes, our fandom is crazy, we find out everything)
2. Niall's favorite restaurant is Nando's
3. Louis likes girls who eat carrots (you knew that was coming)
4. The boys made history when they became the first UK artist to debut at #1 on the US charts with their hit single "What Makes You Beautiful"
5. One Direction was formed on July 23, 2010 at 8:22pm
6. Zayn risked elimination on X Factor because he didn't want people to see him dance
7. Niall loves to eat. A lot.
8. Harry completely got pranked by Louis and Zayn when they had an actress pretend she was giving birth. But it just proves he's the most perfect 100 ONE DIRECTION FACTS AND QUOTES10 months ago in Emotional

Remember?I remember that night you pulled him off of me
I thought…
I thought maybe I'd never seen anything
Anything
As beautiful as you
Just the way you moved
All furious and lovely and wild

I remember the way his blood speckled the carpet

And there were lights flashing
Red and blue and blinding
Casting stark shadows against the snow
And you were barefoot

They had to restrain you
When they arrested him
You'd already broken his wrist
But I think you wanted to kill him

I think they thought that, too

I remember kissing your knuckles
Because he'd split your lip
And I couldn't kiss you on the mouth

We took you to the hospital afteRemember?3 years ago in Emotional

Tragic BeautyI remember lying in my hospital bed at the physical rehabilitation facility, far too many years ago, staring at a picture of a little girl. Someone had brought it in for me, though I didn't remember who or why. In the picture she was wearing shorts, and leaning to feed bread to the ducks gathered around her. I stared at the little girl's legs and cried. She was beautiful.

"I broke you," I whispered to her. "I'm so sorry I broke you. I never meant to. Please, forgive me." And she did, of course. But I'm not sure if that made it better or worse.

There was a poet staying in the room next to me. He was a brain trauma patient, unlike me. For soTragic Beauty2 years ago in Emotional

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