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Ships on SailingI’ve been beginning to notice
That now that my hand has non other to hold, its getting a bit hotter,
And now I’m afraid to let people touch them because they get so hot
So I try to pretend they’re just shy and want to hid under the edges of my sleeves.
But sometimes,
At night, when I’m standing sideways on my bed with my eyes closed, my insomania brings me to think of ballerinas dancing in the dark,
Simply to feel
Yet unable to see,
Reliant on other senses
Which, upon the loss of another enhances
These ballerinas get bruises in the dark
Which they don’t have to hide
Even from themselves,
Because if they cant seShips on Sailing3 minutes ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Soul in Flames

Kill me
Please just kill me
Please just put a
Knife in my heart
But don't push too hard
Or she'll break the glass
That shelters the stars
A heavenly blindness
I've never felt so dark
I've never hurt so badly

Kill me
Please just kill me
Please just hurt me for
Pushing her away
I didn't mean it, sweet
Darling, precious angel
You challenged my fears
My maelstrom of emotions
I've never sunk so low
I've never sobbed so deeply

Kill me
Please, oh, please just
Kill what is left of this pain
I can't give it name
It is merely the color I
See it as, in sick, yellowing shades
You're out of your depth, honey
You don't have to watchSoul in Flames56 minutes ago in Urban & Spoken Word

SheShe was afraid.
Afraid to tell about herself,
afraid to hurt herself.
She called herself a wimp every night
while bathing her face in a mask of tears.
She was afraid to get hurt
Yet afraid of comfort.
Worried she'll burden them.

She was proud of her name.
Oh so proud..
but then she lost the child-like innocence.
she was naive.
in a world of her own.
She wakes up and doesn't know how to exist anymore.
afraid
to
speak.
that girl's name?
that girl
was
ME.

Now a broken shell
who fell from a wooden shelf.
When she hears herself scream
she duct tapes her mouth.
Taking the steps through teen-hood.
taking a sip of the Poison drink we call life.
AShe2 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Falling in LoveI do not wish to fall in love
Yet I’m told its not something
You can help. The idea of
Falling into something and
Not getting a choice is
Terrifying

And I can’t help but think
Of it like that, free falling
Into children and extra
Chores getting out hard
To impossible

It is a lovely trap I’m
Assured but I’ve never
Worried of how nice a trap
Is its still falling after allFalling in Love3 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Nameless FearsCome on body don't fail me. I've got a fear I can't name but it's tailin' me.
Throw me a bone, logic brain—doubt is a drought and I'm dryin' out.
Bring the rain.
If I have to, I'll cry about it—just don't lie to me. Denial's not a state I aspire to reach.
I'll breech birth this epiphany, feet first, just let it come to me. I don't wanna be
Looking for the forest if the trees are right in front of me.
I need an insight, I'm not looking behind me but I'll look inside, just try me.
I know the truth hurts so bring the pain. I'll be kickin at this thought-block until I get an ankle sprain.
Until I bust my knuckles, until my back breakNameless Fears4 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

A Shooting starIn early april.
A brightful night.
I saw a shooting star across the sky.
I wished to make my only wish at that time.

Come true.A Shooting star5 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

One day, some day. (loneliness)I've never felt so empty
I've never felt so alone
So cold, so sad
So lonely..

Then, you come around
Your gentle hand in mine,
But it's all just a dream..
I've never felt so empty.

It's been a year now,
Since I've had the embrace
of someone who truly liked me,
for me.
I've never felt so alone..

Yet, the illusion is so beautiful.
I want to forget, and let it all be real,
If even for a little while. Reality
Hits like a thousand storms..
I've never felt so cold..

Reality is crushing,
Reality is loud.
Reality is sad,
Is reality bad?
Bad, or just bad for me?
I must be crazy to think this way
But, I do. I do, I do, I do
I've never felt so sad.One day, some day. (loneliness)7 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

AddictedOpium is my soul,
Hooked on fragile dreams.

Lithium is my heart,
Thriving on stolen blood.

I wander –
oblivion
I sleep –
restless
I feel –
nothing

Still I crave for more.Addicted7 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Have you seen that girlHave you seen that girl
With the yellow clothing
Running around, making too much noise?

I’m afraid I haven’t
I’ve seen the girl in blue though
She was calm, yet seemed troubled

What’re you talking about
I’ve only seen the girl in black
Packed with danger, yet kept to herself

Ah, were you guys just talking about me?

They all turned
To find the girl
The color they each want to see
For she is nothing
But
A mirror
That shows what you want to see
But never
Revealing the hidden part insideHave you seen that girl11 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

For youLift a finger now
And catch my tears
There's one I wept
Just for you

Hold me so close
As I whisper my fears
There's one I felt
Just for you

Listen to the rhythm
Of my unstable heart
That was a beat
Just for you

Kiss me again
Draw in my breath
That one I took
Just for youFor you12 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

LifeLife comes with its goods and it regrets,

You might lose a friend or a love one

In the end you either get

What you want or get karma

But life is something you shouldn't throw awayLife21 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Falloutthis empty room,
the blank pastel walls,
blank just like the chambers of my heart,
how do i go on when everything reminds me of you,
i just lay here in silent misery,
whats worse is i know your fine,
our relationship was clearly radioactive,
look at all the fallout,
look at all the destruction that's left,
bitter memories turn to ash,
and i fan the flames and burn in agony,
turning to smoke upon the windFallout22 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Vent Two - 5. 19. 13No one actually gives a damn
There's always someone better than me
I'll be replaced soon enough
It's just a matter of when and howVent Two - 5. 19. 1322 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

UntitledI'm not really sure of human love
Or when I will fall again
Or if I will fall again
And that is okay
Because I know how to love while standing aloneUntitled1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

May the moon shine bright aboveRed Rover,

Calling you over,

to breathe sweet monoxide to my lungs

leave me black and dead

in a cold alley's gutter

so I can spark up little purity

to prostitutes and pimps

junkies with lips locked around run-away's

that pause to pay hesitant respectMay the moon shine bright above1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Stone Heartkneeling on rough ground,
the tears fall from my face,
collecting in a chalice beneath your feet,
feel the melodic rhythm of my heart in every drop,
and sate your thirsty lips upon the cool water,
drink your fill from the wellspring of my love,
but do not be surprised once the well runs dry,
and my heart becomes like stone,
and beats no moreStone Heart1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Hanging From a Precarious Branch Above a PitWorking overtime again in the hole again
Running into another wall, hoping for an escape from the dream
Sliding down another steep hill into another hand of fortune
You wish it would stop

Ring your ears again to get into the spotlight, hoping for a chance to be alive
Fling yourself into the pit again, fling yourself into the hole
Bring yourself to face the truth that haunts you in your waking hours
You wish it would stop

Regard yourself again in the image you brought to bear
Guard your heart with all but the sweetest of honey
Stand tall and take it full force; the wave is unbreakable
You wish it would stop

Wish for a cure, a way out of thiHanging From a Precarious Branch Above a Pit1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

MotherMomma you never took my hand,
it’s been years and years of this endless madness,
you threw me away like you threw away the happiness in you,
and every word from your mouth is a venomous sword being pierced down deep,
and every time you come around I want a hug, not a sound,
but when there is no home, there’s no mom,
and when my friends are around,
they tell me how there parents are,
what they’re doing in life,
how great it’s going,
while every time I just sit there and smile,
because all I want is a mom,
but I got you,
You are the lady who’s hurt me the most,
started scarfing and barfing because of what came out Mother1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Love Is My WeaknessYears pass
And my life stays the same.
But life lets me wait,
On and on,
Hoping and praying for a chance
That I may
Once more see that smile.
The face lit up in joy,
Those beautiful eyes that
I can't seem to forget.
So filled with love.
Love of life,
Of friends,
Of family
And all things precious.

Yet you are gone,
Snatched from me;
The world may never heal,
Scars of your passing will never fade;
With only your memory to sustain,
I fear I will never move on.
Love is my weakness and yet
My strength.
Bonds, friendships, relationships;
All of which
You taught me to cherish
No matter the bad times
That were sure to come.

When the tears comes stLove Is My Weakness1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

I feel nothing.The numbness is almost comforting
The feeling of absolutely nothing
No sadness, no anger
Just dead silence
I couldn't care less for his reply
I couldn't care less if he's gone for good
No nervousness, no fear
Just emptiness
My life just goes on, the days drag by
My cuts don't get worse, nor do they improve
No worries, not anxious
I feel nothing.I feel nothing.1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

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