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I feel nothing.The numbness is almost comforting
The feeling of absolutely nothing
No sadness, no anger
Just dead silence
I couldn't care less for his reply
I couldn't care less if he's gone for good
No nervousness, no fear
Just emptiness
My life just goes on, the days drag by
My cuts don't get worse, nor do they improve
No worries, not anxious
I feel nothing.I feel nothing.4 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

CharcoalI light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

The silence is now louder,
And we are samer than the others.
Though the fire now burns quieter,
We're nothing but fighting brothers.

So I light up all the words you say.
I turn them into birds of prey.
No backing down.
It's the judgement day.
Happy birthday! Aren't we a fact!?

Aren't we lovers? Aren't we a fact?
Let's find a new fate.

Somewhere

people

don't

know

our

Charcoal5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

lostI see them slip one by one, all my dreams

Try so hard to catch them, but they dance away it seems.

I don’t want my friends to be my only source of hope

I don’t want to hurt myself anymore just to cope.

This life hasn’t turned out the way I wanted it to be

I’m scared of a future I’m not sure I want to see.

Everyday I feel more confused, feel even more lost

I want to die but I’m not sure if its worth the cost~ lost1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Have you seen that girlHave you seen that girl
With the yellow clothing
Running around, making too much noise?

I’m afraid I haven’t
I’ve seen the girl in blue though
She was calm, yet seemed troubled

What’re you talking about
I’ve only seen the girl in black
Packed with danger, yet kept to herself

Ah, were you guys just talking about me?

They all turned
To find the girl
The color they each want to see
For she is nothing
But
A mirror
That shows what you want to see
But never
Revealing the hidden part insideHave you seen that girl3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Dear momThirteen years are far too long.
I think of your favorite song
and I sit here this day,
thinking what would be the best to say.

I miss you, more then most know.
I remember the way your eyes used to glow.
Waking up each morning, to the smell of coffee and smoke,
there you sat, in your morning cloak.

One day I will paint, I'll paint you in blue.
For you are my sky, that will always be true.
I think of the days filled with happiness and smiles,
the way you made us feel, could be seen for miles.

The little things I wish I remembered,
the way you laughed, what you would have worn in December.
How it felt to fall a sleep next to you,
but one dayDear mom5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

wading in deeperI've never told you
about this fear
and it is proof of cowardice
how I dare speak of it
when you're not here
I've never put it into words
before, but maybe you've seen it
in the way I look at you
or silently plead for your hand
to hold
it says
please
don't leave me
alone
because you are
the most precious soul
and without you here
I forget how to breathe
and drownwading in deeper5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Consider It a DiseaseIs like a bomb that's about to hit
A errie thought that takes over
When life get hard
We give up
Therefore it seems like death is the only answer
You wish your friends and family can stop you
But only you can stop yourself
Don't let negatively become a disease
You're stronger then that
Life will get better down the road
Is the truth but only so few can believe in soConsider It a Disease5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Be happy, my baby girl.I don’t know when you’ll be reading this, my sweetheart
But what daddy is about to tell you will help you understand him a little

Your father is a complex, but loving and caring man
He always tried to help his friends and loved ones whenever he could, even if it was at the cost of himself
But that isn’t the best thing one can do
It got him hurt a lot by people he would have never thought to be hurt by
Luckily daddy has gone through it all, just so he could teach you to be different
Listen to me baby girl, it took daddy not long to figure out what life is
What life is ment to be, and what its true purpose is

He was depresseBe happy, my baby girl.4 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Love and trust are brokenLove and trust are broken
More times than restored
And leaves a person dead
But not blind
When you still fall in love and trust
Even though you’re broken
It’s probably just desperation
To keep away the bitter truth
The truth that says
Mutual love rarely does exist
When they do, it needs to come with trust
And the truth with trust is that
You can’t trust anybody
Without getting broken
Not even yourselfLove and trust are broken1 week ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Stone Heartkneeling on rough ground,
the tears fall from my face,
collecting in a chalice beneath your feet,
feel the melodic rhythm of my heart in every drop,
and sate your thirsty lips upon the cool water,
drink your fill from the wellspring of my love,
but do not be surprised once the well runs dry,
and my heart becomes like stone,
and beats no moreStone Heart3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Still searching for youthe skyline has been torn open again
as it released the cold cold rain
water rises into a river so deep
drowning me just leave me to sleep

i slowly start to open my eyelids
and look to where the light once hid
the darkness now surrounds the sky
as these rivers now run dry

I take a walk on the streets without names
as my blood freezes within my veins
my lips start to slowly turn blue
im at the end but im still searching for you

so i walk through the valley of death
as i savoir my very last breath
my lungs feel so full but there so empty
ill die to see the beauty i used to see Still searching for you5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

LiveI'm Rio that needs a hero.

Take this knife out of my chest or leave me bleeding with out a bulletproof vest.

Am I a angel or a demon? something in me is emotional and hidden.

Somethings are unwritten and out spoken. A fire is in me.

Water calms the flames of rage. To much water kills the flame that is in a cage.

The bird still sings in it's tortured state of mind. Trying to find peace inside.

Peace is is wish for being so blind. Because peace is at his bedside.

Between the darkened heart and pent up rage. The sun is rising off the waves.

A new day rises another one sets. I'm letting go of this soulless regret.

This is for my own goodLive6 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

The Pixelated Mani am just a single pixel,
a tiny dot on the digital canvas of my life,
a speck of grey in a sea of color,
a whirlpool of life and frivolity,
yet the sea is far away,
i am but a single pixel on a blank canvas,
a single pixel can never see a bigger picture,
yet somehow i am okay this way,
a single solitary pixel,
and yet all the same i cling to hope,
i hope that one day i will be joined by other pixels,
so that we may form a beautiful picture,
a special little masterpieceThe Pixelated Man3 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Self MonstersI have awful thoughts
in my head,
its even scaring the monsters
under my bed.
Stealing the light
away from the
moon,
eclipsing ever
so soon.
I'd stab you in the
back if
I didn't only
have a spoon.
I'll dig my
own hole,
deeper and deeper,
just until I
feel a bit
cleaner.
I'm buzzing like
am addict,
experienced like one
too.
But here I am,
barely able
to tie my own
shoe.
My eyes have been
heavy for
days,
even weeks.
But here everyone
is, watching
my head leak.
I'll break up
night and day,
and leave you
all alone.
I'm never
fucking
coming
back
home.

Self Monsters6 hours ago in Urban & Spoken Word

The BondFull of sorrow, full of hate.
Rejection, disappointment. Is this fate?
At those hard times
Love, warmth, support and understanding seem to be
The one and only remedy.

Two separate lives,
Two separate souls.
Both so alike,
And yet so different, like the Poles.
Their worlds collide
And they unite.

To everyone's surprise,
Their bond was stronger unlike any other.
It grew, expanded, prospered,
Their lives now just as bright as summer's sunrise.

They're not like Romeo and Juliet,
Oh no.
To fall in love the moment that they met,
To say that, straight away, they are 'The One'
Wasn't the way they like to get things done.

Patience, dedication aThe Bond1 day ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Falling in LoveI do not wish to fall in love
Yet I’m told its not something
You can help. The idea of
Falling into something and
Not getting a choice is
Terrifying

And I can’t help but think
Of it like that, free falling
Into children and extra
Chores getting out hard
To impossible

It is a lovely trap I’m
Assured but I’ve never
Worried of how nice a trap
Is its still falling after allFalling in Love2 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

UntitledI'm not really sure of human love
Or when I will fall again
Or if I will fall again
And that is okay
Because I know how to love while standing aloneUntitled3 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

escapei'd much rather live in a world of fiction
than in the brutal reality set forth at my feet

go ahead and bring up embarrassing shameful dysphoric
triggering events
that happened while i had cancer

sorry

i bled over everything
while i was bleeding to death

and i never did replace the clothes i bled all over
the stuff i borrowed from you when i ran out of mine

sorry

i haven't scrubbed out the image of myself
covered in blood
sobbing
shaking
bent over in pain

on that car ride home
the forty eight hours
i battled with myself
before i finally gave up
and went to the hospital

i don't understand why i can't let it go
and why you can't see howescape4 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Dear whoever reads thisDear whoever reads this,
I just want to remind you how wonderful you are, how brilliant you are. I’m so sorry if you feel alone or lost or unloved but I promise you this: You matter. You are alive and have a world of possibilities all around you. You have so much potential and you can change the world. Put your hand over your heart. Do you feel that? That pounding in your chest is meaning. I know that things seem to fall apart so easily sometimes and it feels as though the world around you is crumbling but here’s a secret that might be hard for you to believe: you will get through it. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not in a week, maybDear whoever reads this5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

No dancing in heavenDance like no one is watching
Sing like no one is listening
Love like you've never been hurt
Live like it's heaven on Earth

When you dance like no one is watching, no one wants to watch you.
When you sing like no one is listening, no one wants to listen.
When you love like you're never been hurt, you'll only get hurt.
When you live like it's heaven on Earth, you're lying to yourself and those around you.

My reason for dancing is to watch, be watched, and learn to be better.
My reason for singing is to express myself and in part teach others to do the same.
I love because I want love, I crave the desire and the passion, the feeling that someNo dancing in heaven5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

Everyday lifeEveryday someone is born
Everyday someone dies
Everyday someone falls in love
Everyday someone parts ways
Everyday someone forgets
Everyday someone remembers
Everyday someone gives up
Everyday someone pushes harder
Everyday is a page in your life
Everyday is waiting to be filled with your story
Everyday is specialEveryday life5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

THEYTHEY

by: Andrew Danis

I lived like this for 8 years
I was tormented and beaten because I didn’t know how to talk to people
I stayed silent when THEY were around
I would only allow myself to speak when I was home

The only true safe place left for me at the time
I would try to escape into my thoughts going deeper and deeper into my own ideas until I believed them real
but reality was always just around the corner
ready to jump me and threaten with a knife so cruel, it wouldn’t have to cut to harm me

I learned to keep to myself
I hid my true feelings, the depression, the anger, the hate
only ever released into the dirt

I would hTHEY5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

HeartbrokenI told him my true feelings.
He told me his.
Complete opposite.
He crushed my heart.

My heart like glass
hits the ground.
It shatters.

The darkness takes over
and I sit in a corner
Heartbroken
and deep in sorrow.

My heart of glass shattered
On the cold hard floor.

I tell myself not to fall
deeper into
Depression.

But I can't
This feeling
Overpowers
and swallows me up.

So I stay
that way.
Till some one comes to rescue me.
If some one ever comes
As deep
And as far as me.
In this state I am helpless.Heartbroken5 days ago in Urban & Spoken Word

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