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GenderGender was complicated
for me at least.

Unlike the others
it wasn't so black
or white
more like
a very large scale
filled with shades
of confusion.

Male?
Not exactly.

Female?
Not quite.

I wanted the
broad shoulders
that men obtained
by nature. I ached
for the clavicles
that showed whether
you were average
or thin.
I desired the chiseled jaw,
the strong arms
that could make
any girl feel
safe,
the deep voice that
could make her
swoon with
the right words.

However,
I longed for
the graceful walk
that females could master
so naturally.
The soft voice
that could make any man
question his feelings.
I needed the long fingers
that woulGender22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

BrokenI am worthless, unwanted, left here to die
Stranded, all alone, with no names to cry.

I am ugly, horrifying, the picture of spite
Qualifications to love; no sense of sight.

I am stupid, naive, no future for me
At least, not the future I wish it could be.

I am jealous and hateful, I could skin you alive
If you ever touch the monster that I am inside.

I am timid, afraid, never anything but tense
My shining silver tongue is my only defense.

I am broken inside, despite all of my tricks
I am broken tonight, and I will never be fixed. Broken4 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

stranger in my housethere's a stranger in my house
i know not from where he came
he mocks me as i do my chores
for he always does the same

there's a stranger in my house
always trying to act cool
no matter what i say in response
i just look like a fool

there's a stranger in my house
and he's scaring off my friends
when ever they come over
he annoys them to no ends

there's a stranger in my house
but i just take it day by day
no matter what tactic i try
he just won't go away

there's a stranger in my house
and he's staring at me now
i want to ask him why he's here
i just don't quite know how

tell me stranger if you will
why is that you're here?
i don't remebestranger in my house12 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

I should've tried.The rain can descend
It's not like I can stop it
Raising two hands won't restrain it at all

I can pretend that I don't feel the chill of each drop
But I can't ignore the strange sound of it's fall

Puddled and pooled
The gloom will linger
Opaque white reflects in what's now dew

What was once clear is almost forgotten
Even the sky has forgotten its cerulean blue

Daylight wanes
And changes face
Its steely gray becomes a charcoal fog

Time is chased as night approaches
Arriving as swiftly as a vicious dog

I remember you
Like the rain that fell
I remember I couldn't hold you back

I remember your wide open sky was once blue
Even now as it fadI should've tried.1 day ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

The mind of a writer.Paper walls they may be,
But don’t you dare call them thin.
They’re thicker than you know,
Deeper than you can imagine.
Rooted so deep within,
I can’t be satisfied
Without the dramatic actions
Without the all of the excitement I am so horribly denied.
So far from reality,
So caught up in the pages,
So completely lost in time
Flying through the ages.
I’m stuck with these surreal barriers
Somewhere between truth and fiction
Stuck feeding
This ravenous addiction.
So completely wasted
And absolutely high
I make constellations with my own freckles
As though my own flesh were the sky.
The lack of real sensation
Is so much moThe mind of a writer.18 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

The Hospital of DecayI dreaded the
cold, odd smelling
hospital waiting room.
It seemed like everyone
was waiting for
some sort of magical
miracle cure to
appear out of the
thick sprays of
air freshener to
mask the scent of
death.

They knew it was there though.
Lurking in the disgusting
poison they feed you
convincing you it will
help you heal.
Around the corner
standing in the shadows
watching your monitor
the repeating beep that your
already dead heart makes.
Sitting in your soft flesh
right in the center of your
blue pulsating vein
waiting until it can
spread and infect you
with it's disease.

No one will notice
until it's too
late.
Until then
enjoy the scThe Hospital of Decay1 hour ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Beatiful nothingSwirling beauty
Wisps of white
Makes the sunshine
Not so bright

Clouds my eyes
Can’t see a thing
Only grey and nothing
No song to sing

Come up from earth
Down from the sky
Fills up my mind
I can’t say goodbye

Cuts off my sight
My hearing and voice
I can’t break through
It gives me no choice

I’m no longer here
I’m no longer there
This mist has me trapped
I’ve no life to spareBeatiful nothing2 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Fugue imaginaire9 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Wings, Demons, and Trees Sometimes I try,
And I fall to the ground.
My feelings are hidden,
But I just can't manage to fly.

My feet are light,
Lighter than feathers,
But it's my heart that weighs me down.
For I have problems and demons that I hold on to tight.

But you have the key,
I can see it there in your hands!
Alas, someone has come to save me!
Someone has finally heard my plea!

But you turn your back,
Shunning another person,
Just like I've watched you always do,
And I have a panic attack sending me into the black.

When I awake,
If I dare,
Then I will still be cWings, Demons, and Trees10 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Good morning there beautifulGood morning there beautiful,
You're as pretty as can be.

I hope your day is wonderful,
and filled with thoughts of me.Good morning there beautiful11 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

I want toI want to cry but I can't
I want to hurt myself but I shan't
I want to sleep but my eyes seem to stay like a plant
I want to hug you but your far away
I want to love you but here I have to stay
I want to smile for you but not I may
Although I feel all this pain
My wait for you will not be in vain
One day we will meet again
And maybe my pain will be put to an end. I want to13 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

loosing itmy sanity is dripping done
my cheek to my chin while
my wrist do the same then it
drips to my to elbow as you
step on my hands that hold on
the edge pealing one finger of the edge
im screaming for help and the people
that come just push me father off
soon im going the run out of sanity
and im going to loose my grip on the edgeloosing it17 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Pillow TalkPillow Talk

“Its 2 a.m. Why aren’t you asleep?”
So tired. I haven’t felt
this way in so long. Should I take a leap?

When did we meet?
I had forgotten the way you make me melt.
“Its 2 a.m. Why aren’t you asleep?”

The whole thing won’t work. The outlook seems bleak.
What did I want when I knelt
down to pray? Maybe I should take a leap.

His touch felt like lightning. I’ve never known this heat.
Do I want this fate they have dealt?
“Its 2 a.m. Why aren’t you asleep?”

I can feel my heart beat.
The pain in my chest leaves a welt.
Maybe I should take a leap.

It moves liPillow Talk19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

...I believe it passed the test
Thank you for the lullaby
Now my mind and heart at rest
I will sleep while soul will fly...19 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Beginning. Middle. And an endIt started with you
You were funny
You were goofy
You were charming
You made me feel
Like no one else
And you stole my heart
In that moment
I was doomed
Then was me
I was cautious
Stepping on hot coals
I wanted you
And I didn't want you
And I wanted
You to stay
For as long
As was permitted
And after you
And after me
There was us
There was we
There was together
And forever
You were cautious
You made me laugh
As if
I would leave you
As if I would want to
As if I could find fault
In a man
Who saw me
As you did
But
You don't know
You aren't caring
You aren't loving
You say things
Do things
You know hurt me
With no caution
With no remorse
And now?Beginning. Middle. And an end20 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

...Feel connection of my waves
I have been away for days
Only heard the muted sound
When my name you called out loud
Now I'm back, please talk to me
Tell me what it is you see
Let me feel what you are feeling
Let me know you're still believing...22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

The Depths of DeceptionWe live in a world that's fraught with lies,
Deception lurks in every shadow.
Yet even the best cannot realize,
The heart of every person is hollow.
I take a look at those around me,
I see sorrow and despair in their eyes,
The hurt others cause is easy to see,
We live in a world that's fraught with lies.
We lie to family, we lie to friends,
We lie 'til filled with unbearable sorrow.
We lie out of habit, we lie without end,
Deception lurks in every shadow.
Everywhere one looks it is found,
I observe this desolation with sighs,
Signs are everywhere, all around,
Yet even the best cannot realize.
For everyone is guilty, everyone laments,
In a flood of misery we wallow,
The lies inescapable, ever present,
The heart of every person is hollow.The Depths of Deception22 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

To all FathersThere's a guy that's in my life.
He calls my Mom his loving wife.
He tries to teach me right from wrong
to stand up, be proud and e'er be strong.
He picks me up whenever I fall
and harkens promptly to my call.
He gives his comfort when I'm sad
even if his day went bad.
I owe him much is all I can say,
for all he gives to me each day.
And whose this man that's my best comrade?
To me he's simply know as Dad.
S.D. 2012To all Fathers21 minutes ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

the wishin the park there stands a tree
his strongest wish was to be free
every night i hear him cry
"please, let me go,let me fly!"the wish50 minutes ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Seized by the LabyrinthWhy am I here
No beating heart's near
Cold walls of fear
In a maze of tears

Once I went in
Seeking that thing
Thought I had wings
This is where I've been and remained

I would find you and fly away
Together we'd jump in the fray
And turn the wide world astray

Trains of thought cross and collide,
Shifting theatres of war inside,
Yet only patience can win me this fight.Seized by the Labyrinth55 minutes ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

Whence To WhereYou surprise me and confuse me,
And make me love you more.
The brightness may undo me,
The darkness I adore.

There's so much grey,
And so much pain
That brings rejuvenation.
I fall and sink,
But then I blink
Before illumination.

Whence to where is what I asked,
But much is coming clear.
My sadness fading here at last,
And with it all my fears.

You've brought me out,
How can I count
The times you've soothed my soul?
From where I was,
You may become
The star that leads me home.

Light and dark will mold and mix
Till grey is what I see.
A calming sight that seems to fix
What once was wrong with me.Whence To Where1 hour ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

AddictInjected through dream filled eyes,
Under the sunny skies,
Of newly formed ties,
I just hope it never dies,
Because the withdrawals are painful,
The feelings disdainful,
This drug is strong,
Like the rhythm of that metal song,
The lovers motto played like a scratched CD,
"Your love is my drug" you see,
I am merely an addict at its whim,
Trapped in this vortex as I cannot swim,
In this violent tide,
That has tied me at your side,
Your smile giving me will,
To keep going still,
Feeding the addiction,
Pulling me deeper into the fiction,
Of that paradise above,
This thing that we call love.Addict1 hour ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

depressionfirst am I small,
you bearly see me.
i'm on your shoulder,
i'm nothing at all.

then I become bigger,
and I say in your ear;
honey,
you have to disappear.

I go to your head,
and stay for a while.
I will drive you mad,
until you don't remember how to smile.

I become as large as I can get,
I like it, and i'll stay in your head.
I will wisper more and more
until you arn't here anymore.

Maby now you know my name,
I am called depression,
I feel no shame,

and it's my fault what she became. depression2 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

HerzbrecherHerzbrecher

Wieder ist es passiert
Wieder hat es jemanden erwischt
und wieder darf ich zusehen
wie das Herz eines Menschen bricht.

Du brichst mir das Herz
weil du anderen das Herz brichst.
Du verlässt mich
weil du andere verlässt.

Du willst niemanden verletzen
doch du verliebst dich immer wieder
weil dir ein Herz nicht genug ist.

Du suchst etwas
was du nie bekommen wirst
weil das, was du suchst
sich immer weiter von dir entfernt
je öfter du das Herz anderer brichst.

Glück braucht Zeit
und Liebe kommt nicht an einem Tag
verschenke dein Herz nicht dauernd neu
weil ich dir sonst nicht mehr in die Augen sehen kann.
Denn eHerzbrecher2 hours ago in Traditional Fixed Forms

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