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I understand that some people have a bad childhood. Things don't go as planned, life is not perfect. I understand that some are heartbroken at times and create art to reflect their emotions. I honestly LOVE Yuumei. Mainly because she puts emotions into her art and draws it for a purpose. Her art is some of the most inspiring I've ever came across on this site and I ALWAYS "aww" and "oooh" when she posts a new drawing. She really puts the "heart" in "art"....bad pun I get it, let's move on.
On a serious note. THAT is what I consider art. Writing something horribly like a small poem with gramatical errors full of quotes I've heard before all over the internet is not a POEM or ART. Drawing some quick sketch of how someone sits and cries in a corner asking "Why doesn't he love me???" is not art in the slightest to me. I have a quite high standard when it comes to ART. As you will notice if you continue reading below.
I've seen the front page several times nowadays. Most times flooded by these "secrets" that ONLY seem to go on about how MISERABLE people's lives are. D.A Secret. Guys, I can hear you already "It's only 1 drawing!!! If you don't liuekkk iitt dunnn click on euuuuuuuuttt!!!111!" Uh. No. First of all, it's not only 1 single drawing (most of the times it's not even a drawing but horrible typography.) the entire PAGE is flooded with this if you scroll DOWN. This is an ART site, not a "whine about your life" site. If you want that, go to facebook, there's enough of it there. Sure, nice idea to show support for sad people d.a... If ONLY you'd make actual ART out of the quotes you recieve, and CHECK before you post it to make sure it's not been said OVER AND OVER AGAIN all around the internet. Here are my TOP reasons to why I don't like this entire "d.a secret" thing.
1) ERRORS. They are most of the times grammatically incorrect. Not that it matters, unless you know, you actually CARE if you did a good job on the 'art'. Ya know...check the spelling.
2) REPETITIVE. They are usually full of quotes that I've heard a billion times and I've grown tired off. There's no point in saying stuff that probably happens to EVERYONE at some point in their life. It's too common to be a 'secret'.
3) FLOODING. They take up the entire front page BUMPING DOWN art that someone spent HOURS on. There are many artists that don't get the recognition they deserve because THIS kinda stuff shows up at the front page. In all honesty THAT effects me, because I'm here for ART.
4) DEPRESSING. "Popular" doesn't mean "Good" I'd like it to be this way, that popular would mean "good". It's not though and in all actuality these "secrets" are not good but only popular because they abuse an emotion we all know too well. SADNESS. Do you think anyone would care if their secrets were focused on happiness and ENJOYING life? People writing about how HAPPY they are for something? Hell no. Since when do we want to read about how well other people do? Again, I came to this site for ART, not to get depressed.
5) SADNESS. I would ignore these "secrets" but I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ABUSING EMOTIONS FOR PERSONAL GAIN. Personal gain being "Feel sorry for me because I want attention." As if someone deserves a few watchers or followers ONLY because they're a little sad. NO. It's a 'lovely' emotion that could be portrayed wonderfully through art but it starting to bugg me because of these secrets. They're conveying the emotion "sadness" in only 1 way. The TYPICAL way. Guys, You can be HAPPY, and sad. You can be surprised and sad. Excited, thrilled, relieved, frightened, brave. All those could be applied to sadness. HAPPINESS is something I love applying to sadness since it's such a rare instance seeing someone crying over something GOOD. All these secrets are is a blend of "miserable+sad" which is repetitive and BORING. Art is supposed to be new and refreshing, yet every time i refresh the front page I get the same bogus I saw yesterday.
Most of you don't know my life... But let me give you a few facts just for the sake of argument so you can't push the "ohhhh you don't know how they feeelllll" argument on me. I've gotten that lame sentence thrown at me whenever I've said that something that was written in a poem was bad because it made no sense and was depressing. It's time to give you a rundown of WHY I don't see such silly things as "tragic" and here is why;
My father abused me as a kid. Verbally and physically. > I was neglected and left alone most of my childhood > My mothers mother died of cancer when I was a little kid. > Several of my cousins died right after of other diseases still while I was around the age of 5 - 8. > My family lives in Bosnia completely separated from me. I only get to see them every 3 years or so for a day or two when we have money to travel to Bosnia. > The only relatives I have in this country right now are...MY MOM. My father is off to only your God knows where. > I woke up one night and found my father abusing my mother saying he'd kill her and smash our car.> I was bullied, hit, kicked and teased during my childhood all up until a few years ago but that was the least of my concerns. > Once my father and mother got a divorce I got severely depressed thinking it was my fault and that I'd split them apart. > Suicidal thoughts started to form out of doubt that all I did was make life miserable for my parents and the people I loved. I was emotionally and mentally unstable. > At the age of 13 I had grown out of this thought that 'it's all my fault'. What happened was not my fault but it was my fathers. IT ONLY TOOK FOREVER TO GET OVER IT. > My father has been out of my life for several years now, not texted me for my birthdays or showed up to visit me, NOTHING. The only family I have left is my mom technically. > I honestly have no idea if the man I used to call "father" is even ALIVE anymore. > Every holiday was spent alone because my relatives and family members were in Bosnia. > The relatives I DID have here were lost due to family arguments and stupid insignificant events that shouldn't matter or tare a family apart. Now I'm no longer allowed to speak to them. > It pisses me off that to this day they don't seem to care about us. Not share what they're doing with us even with the bloody INTERNET available.
Hey.....Guys. IF ANYONE....should be on D.A's front page bitching about how HORRIBLE their life has been,
it's ME.Instead I choose NOT to.Instead I chose to use my artistic and literature skills to portray the emotions. Tell a story as vividly as I can and make others think. Some of you may see my art as sad or depressing at some points... Mainly in my comic PMD-L. Where all characters seem to have a somewhat sad or rich story with lots of despair and rough choices to make. Well yes. I told you I love tragedies. I love "sadness" as an emotion when it's portrayed with ART. Comics, movies, drawings, surrealism, literature. Telling someone a STORY to move them and make them feel something special. I love sadness FOR THAT REASON, that it can easily move someone. I love reading tragedies for the same reason. I love drama and horror. Basically emotions that cause deep thoughts. These "secrets"...don't do that. Not even CLOSE. You want a sad truth? Look through `
yuumei 's artwork. Her art is beyond amazing. HER art has made me think, has made me cry, has made me happy and left me speechless. THAT, is art. Bad typography and nagging isn't. AGAIN, MY standards.
Some of you may be asking "What's the difference between YOUR art, and someone else's where they're basically talking about themselves!?"
If they want to make art, post it, fine. No problem. I don't care, what I DO care about is it being shoved in my face every time I go to take a look at what artwork is "most popular". I have no problem if actual effort was put into it. When they're drawing up a sketch not even colored with stuff spelled wrong on it nagging about "He never notices me and thinks im UGLY" ...it's NOT art according to me. Sorry. I have my standards, I decide what is and what is not art according to MY beliefs on what actually is valuable and precious when it comes to art. It may sound rude and harsh but let me elaborate. When I see effort in ones art, I can call it art. Art isn't ONLY about skill. It's about bringing forth an emotion in my opinion. That's the key to art, at least what makes it memorable. Telling a story with a few words, inspiring someone into being alike you or as good of an artist/writer as you. Art is so much to me. Seeing stuff like "d.a secret" on the front page makes me a little disappointed.
I can show empathy and I can show understanding to people who have suffered. I know PLENTY of people who have suffered horribly in my life and I've been there for them every time. Not one of them has gone online on the internet and posted their "secret" to someone only to get a few "awwww, that sucks" in respons from people they don't even know. Got issues? Talk to someone. Call your friends. GET HELP if you can't deal with it yourself. DO SOMETHING. The problems aren't just going to solve themselves. Putting up a "secret" or a drawing talking about how "oh, he doesn't love me because I never told him I loved him, i think I'm ugly and-" All I honestly hear from this is "WA WA WA WA!" ...NOT art.
In all honesty I think this journal has gone on for far too long. I've made my points and I've ranted for some time. It's now time to leave this be. Good. This took only 2 hours to write, now let's start our homework assignment.
Stay rad and GLAD peeps. Emphasis on the fucking GLAD.
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